Melancholic Merriment

Pain ; u can't avoid Suffering ; u can choose how deep and length Learn from the pain, choose your suffering level.  Falling out of love and heartbreak is pain. How long we wanna hold on, is suffering.  It's ok to feel pain. Don't linger in the suffering. Get up and move on. That is courage and strength. 

Structured or unstructured? Chaos or Order? What is your choice of life? Are we seeking to understand then to be understood? Neuro - 1st stage of assessment - what we assess based on our internal representation, sounds, feelings,  Linguistic - 2nd stage - stories that we tell, interpretation of reality.  Programming - 3rd stage - the because. The behavioral responses.  I'm starting the NLP class to better enhance my personal growth. Understanding how the society and the world works is something I need to learn for my old age.  Hope to take this time to better myself. Let's do this! source: https://wholeparentbook.com/the-universal-keys-of-nlp-neruo-linguistic-programming/

Realization quotes: Sometimes you have to accept the truth and stop wasting time on wrong people  What I need to do: Self-learn and upgrade on mental knowledge - NLP Take a deep breathe and close eyes count to 1,2,3 before responding to things you have no control over Complete reading a book Light up someone's candle Today and the days after will be better. 

Heard this song twice today.  Gatekeeper, seasons wait for your nod, Gatekeeper you held your breath, made the summer go on and on.... Don't be fooled by that summer again...

 I have always wanted to re-start writing. This blog.  But so much in my head asking why am I going back to where I started before. I have deleted the entire blog that I created 15 years ago. How strange, I am writing in the same blog that I deleted.  So now, I am taking this leap of faith to writing again. My feelings, my thoughts. The crazy, sad and happy stuff that goes through my mind.  Today, I am feeling really off.  I feel stupid for making a decision to go through an eye lid surgery to repair my "tired" look. According to the doctor (a qualified ocular cosmetic surgeon) my eyes' condition was call ptosis, where the eye lid was droopy making my look tired. Especially for the right eye. Because of this, he had to make a levator eye muscle palpebrae repair to lift the eye lid muscle. This makes my right eye looks "weird" meanwhile my left eye looks normal.  I'm really sad, to be really frank. Can't see myself on the camera cos my eyes looks freaky...